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post #1 of 6 (permalink) Old 12-07-2006, 10:56 AM Thread Starter
 
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I wished it and I can't stop crying

I wished Kohl away.. I came across a diary entry this morning..

I resented Kohl because DH wasn't there (he travels alot). I took it out on Kohl.. I know I was a great mom but there were so many times that the whining just annoyed me and I would just go lock myself in my bedroom. What I would give to have that whining back... Just for one more day.. I just want my baby back. I miss him so much.

I am not sorry for doing what was right becasue those last few moments I was with him he wasn't even Kohl.. I wish I just payed more attention to him, loved him more, been more patient and understood sooner that he was sick and all his problems were related to that and not because I thought he was a bad dog. Because he wasn't. I wasn't a good mommy sometimes.. I loved him.. I loved him so much and I wish I would have told all of you of the good times not the frustrating bad time. Which were no fault of his own. I wish I understood that he was sick from the start and that he was going to have such a short life with us. I wish we would have gone to the dog park more, I wish I would have just taken more time to sit on the couch with him and let him chew his raw hide on my lap with out carring that he was getting it all over me. I wish I could hear him whine to be let out just one more time.. That is all I want.. Just to have him back. I want one more chance to prove that I loved him so much and that I can't pick the pieces up because I miss him so much

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that is kind of like when my dalmatian had to be put to sleep...I was close to her...but for me...I've had her my whole life basically...and she was always there...even though I was young and couldn't drive most of the time we had her...I wish I realized how important she was sooner...and even though I did spend time with her...when she was gone I realized that I need a dog in my life and I want to share everything with my next dog...Not to replace her...just because I realized how much a dog can make your life fun.
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You can`t and shouldn`t go back. You did the best you could at the time. We can all do better with so many things in our lives. All we can do is try.
He was happy. You gave him a good home and shared your up days and down days. Thats why we love them so.
No one can promise a perfect home or a perfect life. Thats` why we are who we are. I promise it will get better.
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All of us can look back at something and say "I could have done better".

I have found a few good sites, please visit them.

http://freitagfuneralhome.com/public...losingapet.htm
http://www.kasa.com/Global/story.asp?S=478619
https://www.any-book-in-print.com/_p...ss_pet_par.htm (This site has books)
http://www.oznvoo.com/petloss10.html (This site has some recommended readings as well)
http://www.griefhealing.com/granimallovers.htm

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Guilt is a feeling of responsibility for some real or imagined act. If you feel you made a mistake with your pet, try to be fair with yourself. You were taking care of your pet as best you knew how.

The unfortunate outcome probably wasn’t intended and, perhaps, couldn’t have been prevented. Remember, we all are human- we all make mistakes, but we learn from them. Understanding this may help you reduce your guilt feelings
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Please keep sharing your feelings with us and know that we are here.

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You know that the growling is just his way to assert his dominance and attempt to control the world, don't cha???? It's caused by his brain growing faster and larger than his skull, be very careful, he could snap at any second now!!!! :-)
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RIP my sweet Princess.
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we could all be better parents, friends, kids, siblings, pet owners whatever. locking yourself in your room when he was whining, may have been best thing for you to do. you can't second guess yourself or Monday morning quarterback your relationship with Kohl. you love him, he loves you. THAT is all that matters.

take your regrets and learn from them in your relationships with other people and other pets. take that extra minute for a belly rub, or to give hubby an extra hug and kiss before you walk out the door.

you will be fine, Oreokitty. what you are feeling is perfectly normal, the emotions will ease a bit each day and you won't feel so lost and jumbled up. It will be ok

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