For me, it's the pain of losing them that is so fresh that feels like less than 5 minutes ago. But the missing them, not being able to touch them is what feels like an eternity. I lost my Vizsla 1.5 years ago and I still have nightmares about her from time to time.
I am sorry for your loss.
Yeah, it's actually kinda funny/serendipitous you made this thread right about now, Crow.
I've really been struggling the past few days, with some reminders of that first fresh grief, and some more senseless railing about my boy being gone.
See, I disagree that "time heals everything."
I feel time heals nothing.
It's choosing to heal that heals. Time and distance can help with getting the perspective to do that, but you have to actively work on getting through a deep loss like this, in my belief system.
I don't know if that sort of thought process is helpful to anyone else, or not, but I need to remind myself to honor the good things while missing those very things so much, to remember that we still have a relationship and I can talk to him still--it's just different since he is not a physical presence here anymore.
I do better some days than others.
Thanks, Crow, for sharing some of your thought process, and for sharing some hopeful things, I have worried about you. I know--you didn't ask me to, but I still did it