The first horse we lost I totally fell apart and bawled like a baby for months. I really was no help to my poor children. As the months went on I began to understand that the love of an animal is so pure with basically no harshness and all unconditional that it is hard to imagine or have that between humans. Doesn't mean we don't love people as much. But when the air finally cleared I could think of dear Hope with nothing but pure wonder and joy and the gladness of owning her. It took a LONG time to get past the pain to the pure love and memories. I don't dwell on that part of having Kiss, but I'm not dumb. I know it is something I may have to face. Sometimes I even worry more what would happen if SHE lost me. That's scary, too!