I have lots to say to you.
First, I am terribly sorry to hear about Porter. Knowing something was not right then to go through the trauma of a seizure, I know first hand, is terrifying. You provided a very good life for Porter and he clearly filled your heart with love and joy. I am sorry he is gone.
You mentioned you have no children, despite having 3 of my own the loss of my beloved Niko hit me hard, I can't imagine how you are feeling right now.
Regarding your question about bringing a new baby into your home. Niko was my heart and soul dog, I have owned many dobermans in my life and there will never be another dog like him, he was so special. I still mourn him. I refused to get another dog. When my husband and girls thought I had been given enough time to grieve, they asked about getting a puppy. NO! Don't ask me again. This went on for a bit then my husband said, either you find a dog or I will and if I do it who knows what we will end up with. Bottom line, they didn't think it was fair that I said no to a dog when they so desperately missed the joy a dog brings. I reluctantly conceded, and with the help of a dear friend found Luca's breeder. Truth be told, up until the very moment I laid eyes on Luca I was not into it, sssshhhhhh this fact will surprise everyone I talked to. Among other reasons, I felt like I would be "hurting" Niko by bringing in another dog so soon. 5 months later, once I saw him I, I just can't explain it, I melted. Now, Luca is no Niko, and I LOVE that! I went into this not comparing them, in fact I LOVE red boys, but I knew I had to go with a different color. Luca was sent to me, hence his name....Little Luck From Heaven! He comforts me, is funny, stubborn, beautiful, affectionate, protective and the best thing I didn't want to do!
My best to you!
BTW- I was born in Toms River and I sincerely hope that you have gotten back on your feet from the tremendous devastation that still remains.