Thank you everyone so much. For sharing your sad stories and crying for mine. I went back to work today, when I drove up i felt a pit in my stomach. I couldnt even park in my normal parking space because that's where it happened.
I brought Tequila with me to work today for my comfort and hers, she's my 3 year old yellow lab Angels best bud. She is confused and not eating well. I wish I could explain to her why her best buddy is missing.
At Lunch I took her to the river beach across from the clinic, then she got to spend her day in the kennels in the back being spoiled by the girls that I work with.
It was tough being back where Angel died, where my co-workers and I cried over her for an hour..... But it's nice to work somewhere, where the people truly understand this type off loss, and the strength they put in trying to bring her back.
I made it through my day at work but completely broke down when I drove in the driveway and saw Angels grave rather than her and my fiancÚ greeting me.
I keep thinking what if, what if I read more stuf on DCM, what of I got X-rays on her heart years ago.... What if she could have lived longer because of it. I just never gave it a second thought because she was so healthy and saw the vets regularly at work.....
This feels like a nightmare that i should wake up from.
Thanks for sharing each and everyone of your stories I have read them all many times and have cried reading them.
I truly am gratefull for all your support even though you don't know me and never knew Angel.
We made a sign for Angels grave, I have planted most of the bulbs soon I will plant a bunch of wildflower seeds, she deserves a special spot